I’ve lost my stickiness.
I’m like a sticker that has been stuck on and pulled off and then covered with lint. No longer sticky.
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I feel so unmoored, so disconnected from anything solid.
What is disheartening is that as I’m drifting to the horizon, no one seems to notice that I’m floating away.
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In other news, today I assembled a desk, yelled at my kids, ate more than one candy bar, took a nap, worked eight hours, and considered crying but found I didn’t have the energy to do so.
Tomorrow is another day.
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“This too shall pass”. I keep telling myself the same thing. I think the big changes brewing here are coming on fast so my time is coming too, I think. Isn’t it funny how we humans are such creatures of habit and resist change? Hang in there, Mel. I have been praying for you and will continue to do so. I remember when my dad was stationed at Ft. Belvoir in Virginia for 6 months and we remained out here. I was around 14-15 at the time. My poor mom!!!!! And she didn’t even drive. Luckily one of my older brothers was still at home and was able to take her where she needed to go.
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I don’t like that feeling. Particularly when the other things that are part of life, the taking care of kids and the home and other demands are still just as pressing as ever.
Your sticky will return; the lint will be removed and the glue re-energized. We will pray for you as well.
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Awwwwww… BIG hugs and a prayer for you today! Try to hang in there!
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Oh, Mel. Moving is hard. It really is. (Actually I just typed “moving is head” by accident which….well, it doesn’t make any sense. Except maybe that moving also messes with your head.) Thinking of you.
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What you’re doing – ALONE – demands some down time, so take it whenever you can get it!!!
I think you’ve done a pretty amazing job 🙂
‘Lucy
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Oh, Mel.
What can I do to help?
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I wish I could be there to help! Big hugs to you, sister.
And? You’re not floating away; it just seems like it.
“I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.” Eph. 3:16-19
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You express yourself so well! I keep recognizing my own feelings from your writing.
I personally require about a year to feel “right” with big changes, but here’s hoping you’re on a quicker schedule! I’m sending sticky, hopeful thoughts your way.
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Mel, you have a big job to do all on your own. The summer we moved, my husband was gone during the week and home on weekends. I thought that was hard! I’m amazed at how much you’re accomplishing all by yourself. Good job!
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hope it better today
I also want to say, if you didn’t notice, that was a great little poem. Yes it said so much in such few words. WEll done
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I can so completely relate. Hope today is a better day for you!
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