Dear Fifteen Year Old Self:
Stop worrying about boys. When everyone says that girls mature a lot faster than boys, they are not kidding. The boys you wish would talk to you are utterly incapable of it. Don’t take it personally. Cultivate friendships with your girlfriends. Ignore the boys or regard them as cute decor, but don’t expect anything from them. Find your interests, pursue them, read a lot and enjoy being a girl.
Falling in love is less about falling and more about choosing. Love isn’t supposed to hurt or make you cry. There’s plenty of time for love later. Meanwhile, learn to appreciate and love yourself. You are cuter than you think, smarter than you know and funny, too. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Stop comparing yourself to other girls and wondering why your family can’t be like other families. Everything you experience will be valuable later, so embrace it, pay attention and take good notes.
Speaking of notes . . . don’t destroy your journals and diaries. You’ll regret it.
Don’t let anyone derail you from pursuing your dreams and your interests. The college you will choose is really, really important. Don’t be swayed. Use your brain. Your emotions are valid, but they should not steer your life. Think. Trust yourself but find adults who can give you good advice.
Finally . . . you are not fat. Knock it off with the self-loathing. Ride your bike! Feel the wind in your hair! You will never again feel quite as healthy as you do now. Eat lunch! Stop trying to quit eating entirely. Food is not an enemy. Neither is the body God gave you.
Enjoy the summer. You have so few teenage summers left and you should savor every second. Summertime when you’re an adult is just not the same.